Somehow my feelings are still hurt. And when my feelings get hurt I shut down. (Look at me being self-aware). I'm not shutting down today [read: the day that I wrote this], but I am in this goofy "why are we here" mood.
Like seriously, I spend 10 hours every day doing this that ultimately make corporations more money. Like spinning my wheels and doubting my abilities for "the industry." Money is the bottom line. Money has always been the bottom line. Money will always be the bottom line. I never had a problem with that. I still don't think I have a problem with it now, but I need to get myself in a place where I spend 10 hours a day (or more) making Tea richer, not companies.
Because I'm over here feeling bad about and for myself, meanwhile "the industry" is still profiting. Again, nothing wrong with that, but how can "the industry" profit AND Tea not feel like shit. Sounds like a personal problem, doesn't it. It is. I'm working on it. Woo sah!